NSF GRFP- Is applying the worst thing ever?

Yes.
Yes it is.
Here are my stages:

1) Late August: Wow I can't think of a research idea, maybe I'm terrible. Oh god I just started grad school, where is my brilliant idea?
2) Early September: Okay, my adviser OKed my idea. Maybe this will be a great research project! Oh gotta get started on my personal statement but that's easy!
3) Mid September: Okay, maybe this is not a good idea. Oh god, why is writing my personal statement taking forever
4) Late September: Okay, this research project have holes in them. Oh wow, but it's too late to turn back. Oh god, why is writing my personal statement taking forever
5) Early October: Okay, my personal statement is done. Oh god, my research proposal is not looking good. Oh wait my adviser read it and said it was OK
6) A week before it's due: I'm fine
7) The day it's due: Formatting is breaking the rules. Last minute edit!
8) 3 hours after submission: Oh goood, what if I broke some formatting rule so that they throw my hard work away.
9) 4 hours after submission: Oh man I just found a typo
10) 5 hours after submission: Hell

I honestly think I won't get it.
Looking at my research proposal, I feel like I could have restructured it completely.
I'm so-so on my personal statement. I'm on the "Don't talk about your childhood" camp on personal statement. My dad stated that I was literally the most boring child.

Thoughts:
1) I'm looking at the first draft of my personal statement and research proposal. They are drastically different. Like wow, my earlier drafts were garbage!

2) DON'T LEAVE FORMATTING OUT UNTIL THE LAST MINUTE. SERIOUSLY, IT WILL GIVE YOU IMMENSE STRESS. Like how I realized that my figure text was 8 point when the rules clearly state 10 point.

3) Don't read your papers after you submit them cause you will find a typo.

4) Writing centers are the best thing ever... For personal statement. Research proposals go with people of your field, but for personal statement get the English/Literature people to read it.

5) If you're like me, you'll be stressing out after submitting being like "Oh god what if I formatted it wrong so they throw it away,"

6) This was the most terrible thing ever. I'm not looking forward to applying next year.

7) Dad's advice. Don't try to copy other applications. "If you're going to fail, fail as yourself,"

Diapriidae

Diapriidae.

Usually have a shelf on their head

Have a tube like connection between the mesosoma and metasoma
Sexual dimorphic- people mistaken the males and females for different species.

Really cool to look at.

Density Dependent Death in Distributed Delay Differential Equation Model

DISTRIBUTED DELAY MODEL CONVERTED INTO ORDINARY DIFFERENTIAL EQUATIONS THROUGH LINEAR CHAIN TRICK

Distributed Delay Differential Equations in R (Density Independent Death)

More details coming out. Used the Linear Chain Trick for development delays (maturation) Density Independent Death